marți, 3 aprilie 2012

Artistically handicapped

If we were to live in the renaissance period we would have to become homo universalis to be recognized professionally which made it very easy for an individual to define and redefine ones personality, today we live in a paradox. We have to work just as hard to get professional recognition BUT only in one domain, no wait...only in a particular part of a field that belongs to one single domain This means we have so little time for anything else because we have to discover every single detail there is to discover in our microscopic area of expertise, thus leading us to know nothing about ourselves or the world we live in. We cannot live complexly!
We become individuals that know nothing about anything, we do not know ourselves, we have no idea about our strengths or weaknesses and we certainly know nothing about where we should truly be.

I shall give an example in the matter at hand: i went to school and studied chemistry, i understood it and loved as well and i did ok in class, but the teacher never let us feel what chemistry is actually about, we went in the laboratory just to be there, we never got to mix a potion or even see one being mixed, maybe i would have been the next Marie Curie if only i would have had the opportunity to actually study the way chemistry should have been studied.

Am i really to blame because i do not know what i am really capable of? I ask myself these lately because i noticed the way people are brought up into this world, at first they have so much potential, but then society breaks them down and tells them what to do, and if they do not do it they way they are supposed to do it, then society makes sure to make their life very very difficult

At first we are born with boundaries, then our family teach us some more boundaries so we can survive out there and of course society set more boundaries for us to respect.
They say the sky is the limit, but i think we must break all these boundaries first!

joi, 5 ianuarie 2012

A world that is not real

I do not understand how is it possible to live in this day and age and still be racist or sexist?
I do not mind the jokes, they are jokes in the end, they are supposed to make us all laugh and point out certain flaws that a targeted group has, but to take a simple flaw and make it a general characteristic when you are surround by examples that are contrary to that flaw is doing nothing but emphasize how little you truly know about the world around you. I shall explain myself with examples:
Men usually joke around and say that a woman's place is in the kitchen or that she is incapable of thinking, while, all around the world, the best cooks are men, and not to mention that the best chess player in history  is a female, Judith Polgar,with a bigger IQ than Albert Einstein or Stephen Hawking.
Also, another stereotype is that women are not at all good at politics. Can someone please explain to me then why is Germany and Switzerland run by women and are to very rich and strong countries?
Sure, a misogynist will tell me that these are only exceptions.This explanation would have been fine if i wouldn't have seen so many women that smart, strong, intelligent and so on.
Another example,the president of USA is a black person, so why do people keep thinking that black people belong only in the getto?
Most people around me tell me that gypsies are thieves and muggers, yet a gypsy saved me from a mugger and potential rapist.
In addition, people tell me how honorable and just the japanese  people are, but i lived on the same street  for 17 years where they had stores and they always managed to steal money from other people and they were violent against others too.
All i am saying is, why do we put so many labels based on so little known factors? Humans are humans and they will always act different!
I've seen women that were much stronger than men, i've seen men that were much more tender and loving and sensible then women, i've seen black people and gypsies doing the exact opposite of what society things they would do, i've seen japanese people bad at math, and all these stereotypes have become the exception and not the rule.
I do not what to live on a planet that is so cruel and harsh and has so much hate for others just because they think stereotypes are real. The white MAN is no the best creature on this planet,  the HUMAN is not the only creature on this planet and it most certainly is not the best creature either!

sâmbătă, 3 decembrie 2011

Gray daze

Breathing is hard today for me, it seems that air is made of lead, every particle falls heavily on my lungs almost puncturing my chest.
Today means nothing, the life means nothing....I seem to have found myself lost in the emptiness of days gone by. I want to find myself again, i want to know where to find myself, but most of all i want to practice what i preach, i want to find the energy and will to just DO!

luni, 14 noiembrie 2011


Tomorrow, 15.11.2011 is a sad day for me...a year ago i lost my best friend, a family member, part of my heart, of my being.....i remember her dearly, and after a year i am still not myself, i still fell sad, and i am still incomplete...
It's funny how i managed to love someone so much! It's unreal to me how much i depend on her...I still want her back, I still love her just as much, i have not forgotten her at all, every i think of her, i carry her in my heart, in my soul, in my very essence....we are not one, we never were, she is just a very big part of me, the most important part of me!!!!!

vineri, 19 august 2011

Infinite Diversity in Infinite Combinations

I  went at my grandma's house, in the country side for a few days, and we usually take the same road, parallel to the Danube, and in between town there is this old and abandoned fish shop named STAR TREK, after my favorite tv series, and of course this time we just had to stop so I could take a picture, or two...
As you might have guessed form previews post, my favorite character from the series is  SPOCK, it would be illogical not to aspire to be a vulcan one day, until then all I can say is " Diftor reh smusma!" (live long and prosper)

sâmbătă, 30 iulie 2011

Turn into a better you

As I sit in my dim lighted room, listening to "Wild world"  I stop and ponder on the things I did do and the things i refrain from doing and i could not help but realise that i made a lot of mistakes which i deeply regret today....
I find it fascinating and weird how people can change as time goes by. I like to think that i changed for the better.
It is strange to me that once i was actually capable of hurting the ones i cared about and that i would never think before saying something, is strange that most times i knew what i was going to say or do will in fact hurt the ones i loved, but i did no matter what, i fact i found myself rather enjoying the thought that i have the power to make someone feel is strange to me that back then, no so long ago actually, i was such an awful person, and now i find myself being different.
Of course, even back then there was a lot of good in me and of course i did ,in fact, felt bad for hurting other human beings, but somehow a part of me wanted to be bad, cruel, heartless.....i now know why...i was afraid to get hurt. In my mind, at that time, i thought that if i hurt them first they could never hurt me back but in fact my own actions and words hurt me more than they could ever imagine.
I find it  strange and funny they i only hurt them to protect myself but ended up hurt by my behavior.
Life is indeed peculiar....
All in all, i changed a lot since then, and i do believe that everyone deserves a second chance just because everyone is allowed to do things wrong the first time...just like when you cook pancakes, the first one is never perfect....

marți, 28 iunie 2011

How i think sometimes

this is how i think:
doing random stuff around the house, trying to make it look cool, fail like a boss, my initial reaction
                "that was more awesome in my head"
but then:
      "i have awesome stuff in my head :D, my head is awesome, my head is attached to my body, that means my body is body is the carcass of my soul and being, my being is awesome...but wait...if my head and body and being are awesome that must only mean that
                                     I AM AWESOME....and then i fail at life...again...but still DFTBA!!!!